Nothing to do but wait and see….
On a whim I sent a note to an independently owned shoe design company here in the Bay Area. There are only a few designers out here, and most of them leave me cold. This duo however have great style, so in a moment of inspiration I sent them a note asking if they needed an intern.
Now, I’m aware that I have too much experience to be an intern, but here’s my thinking…. After Job From Hell I wanted to give up on shoes entirely. Though I know the job experience varies drastically from mid-level to designer level, I was just too fucked up from JFH and couldn’t see through the rage I felt towards my abusive bosses. I thought to myself, “well, I refuse to work in the industry….. and I don’t quite know how to start my own business yet…. so I guess I’m through.”
But I’ve had five months since then, which I used to sit around watching Netflix streaming and eating cold cereal while I felt sorry for myself - I’m kiiiiiiinda done with that. I’m ready to dip a toe back into the field.
So I dropped the design duo a little note. 30 minutes later, I received a response saying that my timing was good because they actually do need some help, and could I come interview the following day?
I met with them, and it turns out they need more than an intern. In fact, the position they need is pretty much a perfect mix of the three things I do very well: design, organization, and marketing. They are a small company and growing at a smart pace, so I am happy to wear many hats if it means I can finally work in a place where people don’t: treat me like a naughty child, insult my intelligence on a daily basis, expect regular 60 hour weeks and weekends without compensation, or snap to get my attention and tell me to “sit” so they can reprimand me like a dog. (Yes, that actually happened at my last job.) It sounds like this small local company is the sort of place where I might make a very significant contribution to their future. The idea of feeling useful and productive is such a far cry from JFH… I can’t even find words to tell you the sense of relief I felt hearing about this opportunity. And contrary to how my bosses at JFH behaved, the way to make someone work hard is to give them ownership over their own tasks. If I feel my work is meaningful to the project in some way, I am far more willing to work 60 hours to meet a deadline.
So I’m feeling refreshed and hopeful, and just sitting here hoping to hear back from the design duo soon. I really want this job. I think I would kick ass at it. I was a little nervous that I’d still be burned out on the field as a whole, but interviewing at this place made me so happy I almost made a fool out of myself talking to them. I was just SO relieved to find out that I still wanted to be a designer after all….
1 year ago